My Life/Relationship Story…

My Life/Relationship Story…

When I Met You, You Where 29. When I Found Out Your Real Age I Realized You Had Lied, But By That Time I Fell So Deep My Heart Sanked. I Was In-Love With You. Form That Point I Demanded Honesty. Thinking You’d Be True To Me. Three Times You Cheated, Three Times You’ve Lied. The First Time That’s When I Realized, I Was In-Love With A Liar. But Still I Fell So Deep My Heart Sanked. I Was In-Love With You. The Second Time We Fought And You Punched Me As If I Was Nobody. Blood Everywhere,The Floor,Bed And The Bathroom Sink. Right Then I Should Have Left You, But I Fell So Deep My Heart Sanked. I Was In-Love With You. I Should Have Left You, But Still I Stayed. And Now Still Til This Day Living With The Scares Of A Cracked Nose And That Memory. Weed, X And 4Bars, These Are the Things You Got Me Into. These Are The Things I Allowed Myself To Get Into. I Can’t Put It All On You Cause In The End I Had A Choice. I Just Couldn’t Fall Out Of Love With You, Cause By That Time I Fell So Deep My Heart Sanked Into You. Strip Clubs And Prostitution, These Are The Things You Boasted About as If It Was A Medal Of Honor For You. Your Honor, My Shame, I Learned To Cover Up The Pain. A Mask Is What I Wore And I Did It So Well It Become Part Of Who I Was,While Still Dying In The Inside…

You Would Bring Your Friends To Come See Me,But Behind Your Back They Try And Screw Me. These Are The Things You Boasted About. Your Honor, My Shame,Which Turnt Into Pain. To Embarrassed And Ashamed To Call Home, So Instead I kept Them At Bay… The 3rd Time You Cheated I Was Pregnant With Our Lil Baby Boy. I Knew I Should Have Left You, But I Was Determined To Make It Work For The Sake Of Our Son, So Loyalty Stood Stronger Then Ever. After 3yrs And A Baby Later I Was Determined To Finally Leave. I Realized That Taking Care Of You Was Killing Me. I Didn’t Know Who I Was Anymore. I Forgot Where I Came From, But I Knew This Wasn’t Me. This Wasn’t Who I Was Suppose To Be…

I Know People Will Read This And Ask “Why Didn’t I Get Out Sooner?” “How Did I Allow It To Get This Far?” But it’s Easier Said Then Done When Your Blinded By Love And Eyes Glued Shut. It’s Just Not That Simple…

However I Do That Him, Because If It Wasn’t For Him I Wouldn’t Know What Love isn’t. i Wouldn’t Have Learned How Not To Be So Quick To Judge Other People.And How To Never Lie, Because I Know The Pain One Lie Can Do.Some People Call Me Mean..I Call It Telling The Truth.. And I Expect Nothing Less From Other People(When It Comes To Keeping It 100 With Me). It’s Because Of Him That I Can Reach My Full Potential, And Now I Can Love Again. With Someone Who Loves me For Who I Am And Who I Am Not. But Whoever That Person Maybe One Day I Hope To Hear Those Words That Khleo Thomas Spoke On Twitter When He Said: “I Don’t Care About Your Past Sweetheart, I’m Only Concerned About Our Future. All The Facts Before Don’t Matter”. Those Words Would Mean The World To Me,But For Now I Sit Back And Wait As I Continue This Journey With My Son And My Son Who I Am Grateful To Have In My Life Today…

This Is My Story…

This Is Just A Thought Or A Prayer...

What Happened To Those Times We Use To Spend Talking On The Phone Everyday.The Times When I Didn't Have To Chase U Down Just To See How U You Were Doin?Now Its As If Ur Gone With The Wind No One Knows Where U Are Or Were Ur Going.I Miss U Sometimes An Others Not So Much,I Don't Miss U 4 Me But For My Son A Man To Be.No One To Show Him How To Be A Man Or How To Treat A Lady.I Can Only Teach So Much But Who Teaches The Rest.Guess All I Can Do Is Pray God Plz Send Me Ur Best Man Because My Journey Is About To Began To Raise A Boy 2 Become A Man.

If you could look like anybody, who would it be?

I Only Wanna Look Like Me. I'm Ok With Being Jus Me..

Ask me anything

What's the most unselfish thing you've ever done?

Took The Blame In A Major Money Lost Situation That Someone else Caused...

Ask me anything

What's your favorite movie quote?

Tomorrow Is A Mistery, Yesterday Is History And Today Is A Gift That Is Why It Is Called A Present..

Ask me anything

If you were stranded on a desert island, which one person would you bring with you?

Hmmm... My Son

Ask me anything

Cats or Dogs?

Dogs No Doubt..

Ask me anything

If I Was Invisible...

If I Was Invisible, Would I Feel So Hurt...
If I Was Invisible, Would I Still Wanna Cry...
If I Was Invisible, Would I Still Wanna Be Seen Or Would I Wanna Stay That Way...
To Be Invisible, I Do Sometimes Wish,
But Would It Solve My Problems Or Just Make It Worst..
To Be Invisible Will It Help Or Would I Just Be Considered A Run Away...
To Be Invisible, I Do Sometimes Wish.
If I Was Invisible, Who Would Miss Me Or Would I Be Remembered At All.
If I Was Invisible, Could I Still Be Lied To Or Taken Advantage Of?
If I Was Invisible, Hmmm...I Wonder.
To Be Invisible, Would I Still Feel Lost And Confused?
To Be Invisible, I Do Sometime Wish...
If I Was Invisible, Would It Make Everything Alright Or Just Sugar Coat Thing?
To Invisible, Man! I Do Something Wish.
But... In The End Would It Be Worth It?
If I Was Invisible, Would People Miss Me Or Just What I Do For Them???
If I Was Invisible, Would I Feel So Heartbroken Or Relieved That I Have No Heart To Break?
If I Was Invisible, Hmmm... I Wonder.
So If I Was Or To Be Invisible Would I Still Feel The Same?


I Wrote This Song When I Was Still With My Babies Dad, Me An My Mom Wasn't Talking. And I Just Started Asking My Self Questions About What If. So That's Pretty Much How I Came Up With This Poem. It's More Like Questions To Me Then A Poem But You Chose Were You Would Place It..

Thanks For Reading Much Love To You All.
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That Was A Poem I Wrote A Long While Back. It Was One Of My Favorites, And You Probably Se e Why... Lol But This Is What I Do I Write And I Love What I Do... :)

This Is A Poem I Wrote Almost About A Year Ago. I Don't Have A Title For It But It Was Just Something I Had To Get Off My Chest.

I Wrote This On The Train On The Way To My Dads House In VA. It's About Closure That I Needed For Me To Be Able To Get Over My Ex-Bf Aka My Baby's Dad. Writing Helps Me More Then Anything So This Is One Of Many That You Will Read. I Hope You Enjoy It If Not, Well I Didn't Do It For You I Did It For Me...


I Woke Up Yesterday And Knew You Were The One For Me. We Were Right In Every way I Enjoyed You, You Enjoyed Me, We Laughed, We Talked Nothing Was Wrong In Our Perfect Little World. We Were Free As Can Be. I Never Questioned Who You Were To Me Because You Were My Baby, And No Matter What You Did You Couldn't Hurt Me. I Believed In You, I Believed In Us. We Were One As Far As I Could See. And I Enjoyed Every Minute Of Every Second Of The Days That We've Spent Since Yesterday. Today When I Woke Up I Realized That We Would Never Be The Same. The Pain That I Once Couldn't Feel I Feel Every Last Drop As It Slowly Sinks Into My Soul. I Know You Believe Everything To Be Alright, But Really Everything Is Falling Apart. The Laughter I Once Enjoyed Has Become Nails To A Chalk Board, The Talks We've Once Had Turned Into Arguments Of Annoyance, And The Person I Once Loved Has Become Just A Friend. The Bound That We've Formed Could Never Be Broken, But The Love That We've Once Shared Is No More. Although My Love Is There It Will Never Be What You Want.. The Touch That We've Once Shared Is No Longer The Same For Me, And Although I Still Believe In You A Good Run We've Had, And Good Friends We've Been. However I Believe Our journey Has Come To An End. You Might Hate Me And Call Me All Kinds Of Bitches & Hoe's, But I Rather You Hate Me Then Rezent Me In The End. As I Come To End Of This Poem And Our Journey Just Want You To Know I Will Always Be Your Friend And You Will Always Be My First Love. THE END



I Wrote This As I Said A While Back And Til This Day My Ex Has Never Read It. I Never Mean For Him To Not Because I'm Hiding It But Cause When I Write Something I Do It For Me Not For People. When You Write Never Worry About What People Will Say Cause They Don't Your Pain, Sorrow, Joys, Or Lifestyle. When You Write Do You Don't Let People Make You...

This Blog Will Be Use For Mainly My Personal Thought .Your Welcome To Read Them.. Much Love And Respect

Was Talkin To My Home Girl Today. She An Here Dude Jus Broke Up. We Were Talkin About Where Are The Morals? Where Are The Values? Ppl Don't Want Tru Love These Days They Want The Man With The Most Money Or The Girl With The Phatest Azz.. Where Is That Ol' Fashion Love That Over Came Everything It Wasn't About Sex,Money Or Even Color. It Was Jus About "I Got You And You Got Me" And That's All We Needed To Go On. But Now, Uhm Now It's No Where Close To How It Use To Be It's Like Tryin To Find A Needle In A Hay Stack... Call Me Ol' Fashion But I'm Goin For That Kind Of Love Even If It Takes A Life Time To Get. AddicShun's Thoughts